..t'was scary :(

Today was just a no ordinary day…right?

As usual, I got to work early despite the traffic and the freaking lousy weather. I learned that my boss is on leave. So yeah, last day of work this week and with no boss around…yay! no pressure! haha

So, I just edited some paper works…played some games in the computer. Nothing much! And oh...most of the time, our group was just chatting around…and laughing out loud…haha no pressure with work though. It was all fun at work…

then there…

Things happen! Such crappy things happen.

Really didn’t know what was happening around. All I know there was a walk out by that Trillanes, that Lim and company…they go straight to Manila Peninsula.

So yeah…but nothing much, right?

Yeah.. until we got all calls and texts from our family and friends on what was really happening.

Dang! It’s something serious! Really serious that the military..soldiers…everyone…tanks are all there already at the Manila Pen.

Dang! And it’s like only two blocks from our office! Gah?! The heck! What was really happening?! waaa

Everyone in the building was kinda panicking in the office…oh well.

Then when I was about to leave the office… some people who left just left the office came back! And saying… “wala munang baba…nasa baba na natin sila.”

Wutt? What was that all about?

Some of us looked outside the office…and there you go! I see some people running back to the office…and men in black with guns…snipers…they were the swat team! Yikes!

And there... that hit me! It scared me!

I was really scared…that all these were really all happening and I'm just near the area…

oh, crap!

...t'was scary

Then I call out to my sister again and tell her that I can’t meet here up right away coz some of the swat people are just around the office…and some say they’re gun shots already….waaa scaaary. And hear that there are tanks already at the lobby of the hotel…waaaaaa

So there…We can’t go out in front of the office…kinda locked out for a while…but some people left after some time...and just a few who were left at our floor...that scared me too...It was like I had no one with me already...So, I had to leave despite all things...

So there...people had to use the back of the office to go out…and my sister was there too…scared…and just fetched me…then we stayed a bit at her office coz we do not know how the heck we’ll go home. Haaay.

To cut the story short, we got home safely. And that’s the good thing.

But then...you get to see on TV what really happened. People are sooo pathetic!

Mga walang magawa talaga sa buhay oh! tssssssss! haaay!

Dang! People are just too insensitive. I don’t think they even thought about what they did…and that goes to both sides…haaay.

Elected public official doing that?...

letting the tanks get inside the lobby?...

military men all over?...

What the heck? Does that solve a problem? Pathetic!

Oh please…nuff of these crappiness!

Hope things will get better for everyone…

*prays*

Contemplating?!

Gah! I’ve never encountered about money problems in my life. All my life, I know how to save and budget my money...money was an easy thing for me to manage. Not a problem at all. But now...I’m contemplating onto something that involves money.

As you all know, our house is being constructed. There’s a lot of money that we need to finish it (contrary to what people think or say...tsss! [check out my other blog site if you wanna know something about it]). I am helping out the family in paying some bills (not that I am obliged to)...well, that's the least that I can do given the fact that I have a low salary (duh?! haha).

But then I also have some things that I want to buy and want to do!

I dunno if I should sacrifice with what I want or not.

Or is it wrong to do something? Buy something and do what I really want?

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Jade texted me this morning about a certain trip. We've been talking about it for some time already. And now, I think...it's going to happen. haha (that's all good!)

It’s a Batanes art and photo expedition on April 2008. It’s 16k...all in! There’s food, transpo, tour and photo lectures (am I right?!).

That’s a good deal, right?! The trip is just fine for me!

Not a problem.

But here's the problem for me... (haha I know it’s so shallow...but it's something for me.)

…I want a dslr!!! haha

But I dunno if I can afford it...well, I think I can but I dunno.

It’s something that I want now (oh my...I’m really becoming a photography enthusiast. haha)…but I dunno if my mom and my sister would be happy about it...it's because its not time to spend a lot of money coz there's so many expenses now.

Actually, here's my plan...(well, I do plan a lot...sorry, if it's OC or OCD? haha nuff about that.)

I want to have a dslr by December or January...

After that, I want to enrol to photography classes by the end of January till February.

By that time, I know how it all works and I can use it in trips like the one for Batanes.

It’s more of…

I want to have a dlsr and know something about it ...

use it when I get to Batanes…

coz its once in a lifetime experience and I want it to make it right.

All these…

At the same time, I am able to help out my family.

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Too much to ask?

I think so...haha

So there…for me...

Sacrifice? Even just a bit?

Maybe...

I think so...

But I hope I can do something about it in time? And enjoy both...helping out and doing also what I want...

Gah, why can't I just enjoy both?

Too much to ask?

Nah!

Nah? haha

*prays*

footy crap?

Hmm…well, I just wanted to post this info about footy here.
It’s been sometime that I posted about it. Not so much going on with the team actually.
Why?
Because they’re not going to the SEA Games! How great is that?! Pathetic reasons! No funds of sending ‘em out coz of lack of funding?! while they've actually have been given money?! That’s full of crap!
Or is it because its election time?

Come on…give the guys a break!
They’re peaking already and you guys are hindering them from going far now that they actually have a chance of a medal!

Oh…well. Corruptness.
That’s what makes it suck!

Anyway, I was able to chat with a mate? Haha fine,a friend, i guess…online...
I asked, “aren't you guys going to the * dinner...the * thing on dec? just asking..”.
He said, “no because we were meant to play in * but they wouldnt pay for the * team to go so im not very happy with the *.”

Yeah… way to go! Haha ditch ‘em! Haha just kidding...

Anyway, ...but what’s sad actually…
and I feel for them about this whole thing not playing…
when he said,” just a waste of time. we got so far. now we're taking a step back.”

Oh well, let’s just try to be positive? And hope thing will be GREAT next time? Right?
*hopefully*

my-kind-of-photography? (updated)

You know you are seeing such a photograph if you say to yourself,

"I could have taken that picture. I've seen such a scene before, but never like that."

It is the kind of photography that relies for its strengths not on special equipment or effects but on the intensity of the photographer's seeing.

It is the kind of photography in which the raw materials--light, space, and shape--are arranged in a meaningful and even universal way that gives grace to ordinary objects.

-Sam Abell, "Seeing and Shooting Straight" by Sam Abell

...nothing...

nothing to do in some days...haha
nah, just trying to enjoy whatever i see...
you know, some little things...ordinary things that makes you appreciate it a lot...
and that somehow...someway...you can make it beautiful? hmmm...
and yeah, my kinda way out of the stressful everyday life too? haha

anyway, i just updated the album, my-kind-of photography?
here's the link! :
http://lousy11.multiply.com/photos/album/12

hope you guys check 'em out!
i'd really appreciate some comments...
and just want to learn more and improve on photography actually...
gah! i so want to have a DSLR! waaa
can some one give me that?! hahaha

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i really love photography...

love taking pictures just about anything...and i just want to share it with you guys...

maybe you can say that too, quoting from Sam Abell,

"I could have taken that picture. I've seen such a scene before, but never like that."

just for inspiration...ya know...

Little things...

Having some time off with work, I was able to rest and be with my family.
It gave me time to see and think about some little things…and can be a big thing?
There have been some good and not so good things.

Hmm... not so good thing first?
- being at the cemetery. (it’s not that I don’t want to visit my relatives and my daddy, it’s just that…I don’t want to be there. I don’t want to visit my daddy coz I want him to be here always by my side and still with us… I guess, I am still not used to it. Not used to the changes…)
- hearing conversations about what’s happening around because of some changes or things that happened.
- hearing people close to you saying that we are a well-off family and we don't need anything makes me feel sad and cry a bit.
(that's a good thing? nah! for me, it’s not a good thing. i just feel that they are looking at us the wrong way....I guess, they just don't really know us...haaay. what we have now, what we have achieved as a family, those are the results of all the sacrifices and hard work of my parents.)

Good thing?
- Just being with the family...and praying...remembering family members who are with the Lord already.
- seeing my cousins and my pamangkins! (it takes some effort to travel and be together...)
- My cousin, Kuya Elmer / Paps, leaning on me so heavily on my back while we were resting on bed. (Actually, i didn't want it in some ways...but i know he is just being makulit and just being sweet? haha)
- taking several pictures with my family...cousins...pamangkins. (and sometimes, I am not in the picture coz I am the one taking it. grrr..Now, I think that's the not so good thing part...haha)
- practicing my photography on whatever thing I see at the cemetery...like the flowers, candles, cross...just anything...haha
- hearing CJ, my godson, says "gusto ko ung juicy!" (haha that's what he said when he was eating his chicken joy!)
- having a contest with CJ on eating Cheetos (hot flavor) together without drinking water! haha and seeing him all sweaty and getting red while I was giving him the Cheetos that are big, long and so red! haha laughtrip!
- seeing my niece, Kyla, approaching me and i don't know why...and whispers, "kadiriii..." (haha that's what we taught her...the "eww, kadiriii" expression..haha wala lang.)
- seeing and hearing the Lola's telling Kyla what to do…this and that…on how she’ll be posing for pictures.
- My cousin, Kuya Ernie / Pugs, tells me, "Irene, gumanito ka sa lupa. (demonstrating on hearing the ground) may maririnig ka na radyo. nasa AM pa." and I asking him, "baket? ahhh..." (Then I get his point) -- This happened when we were at the cemetery visiting my daddy. (Daddy has always a radio with him and listening to the news) that is such a nice little thing to hear. It just goes to show that they know my daddy, their Tito Rene, who was also a big part of their life even if he is not directly related to him. It also shows that daddy touched them in some ways coz I know they won't say that if he didn't, right? I guess he misses daddy too like all of us. It makes me happy.

ummm... these are some little things that happened to me these past few days...which makes me appreciate it.
It’s just also so nice to recall and reflect to these moments.
It teaches me to learn a few things...some makes me sad but some of it lets me be thankful also.

I guess…
Little things (good or not so good) are...
Yeah, can be a big thing…impact to you too!

[pahabol? good or not so good?
Knowing that he is moving here in the country? good? dunno...hmm.
But not having a team back there? not so good.
Labo! nuff about that...haha]