*I hate changes.*
There were so many things that had happened these past few days as we celebrated the holidays. I grew up loving celebrations because it brings the whole family together. Just to talk and eat. I love those moments. Simple yet it brings me joy. But with the things that had happened in my life, some things have changed.
As usual, our family celebrated Christmas in San Pablo, Laguna. Other members of the family were present for also some reasons. It was the first time for us to celebrate Christmas Eve with some relatives.
It was usually the only four of us who celebrates it. But now, it’s different. Not because some of our relatives were present but my dad is not with us to celebrate. But despite that, we made the most out of the circumstances. We had pictures everywhere and MMS everywhere with our relatives just to know what’s been happening with all the celebrations. We had some phone calls from the US, Q.C. and Boracay to hear and say greetings with relatives. For the traditional Christmas lunch, we still had it together with my dad’s side of the family with my Nanay Geling, my dad’s mother. We ate a lot and talked about so many things but still you can sense that we all miss the presence of my dad.
Another celebration was the traditional chums party! Haha 
I always look forward to this because it’s the only time that the kada are complete. We usually have the party at a friend’s house just to eat, play games and do whatever. However for a change, we had a simple dinner at Vivere. (yes! We’re growing up na! haha) everyone dressed up and looked gorgeous for the night! It was a must! (haha tama ba?) We had dinner together along with the beautiful view of Alabang? Haha and the great cold windy weather! Waaaaa and oh! We saw some fireworks too! And there were pictures everywhere again...as always…(I’ll post the pictures soon…when I have them all..oh credit pia for the collage..yay!) and to end the night, we just hanged at Starbucks Madrigal.
Oh, I was supposed to meet my best friend. Well, we have been friends so many years. Not a typical best friend thing because we just meet each other at least twice a year, to celebrate our birthdays in one and the holidays. So, it was a tradition for us to meet during the holidays. It’s our wish list thing granted thingy. Basta yun na yun. haha but some things happened that’s why we were not able to see each other. Bwes? There’ll be a next time. Hold on to my gifts muna…haha
Then for the New Year, we were at our province. It’s the first time for us to celebrate it there. We usually have it at our home. But now, my mom wanted to celebrate it there even though I really do not like the idea. To make things better, I joined my cousins to drink tequila…haha wuzz I kinda tipsy…who cares..haha
All these celebrations really give me joy. I am happy because I am with my family. Despite all those moments where you can see all the smiles and the laughter, there’s still the part of me that gives me low spirit. When I look back, it all makes me happy…but not completely. There’s sadness in my heart because my dad is gone. It’s been really hard to go through life loosing someone that you love and someone who really loves you. Everything’s changing. And personally, I don’t like changes in life. I just want to live in my comfort zone. Why can’t some things be normal? Like the way it was?
But I know that’s wrong. I guess, I just have to accept these changes...grow up and move on.
And to end this…
“hindi kumpleto birthday ko kapag hindi ko kasama si Irene.”
Those were the words of my dad during his last birthday last year. Together with our family, we went to visit him today…I miss him. But I know he is in a better place already.
Happy birthday daddy!
*I am in low spirit when I look back some of those moments.*
*But I know I have to walk in faith as I go through everything in life. *
ahh…fresh start… gotta get back…that life!
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