you'll be fine.

"There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. Afraid. Confused. Without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us would rather turn around and go back. But once in awhile people push on to something better-something found just beyond the pain of going it alone and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in. Or to give someone a second chance. Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because it's only when you're tested that you discover who you truly are. And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be. The person you want to be does exist, somewhere on the other side of hard work, faith and belief, and beyond heartache and fear of what lies ahead." – Lucas Scott

Alone. Confused. Hopeful. Faith.

These are the words that you can feel when life pretty hits you hard.

You feel that you are all alone even you are the surrounded by the people whom you love and who loves you. Some people will say that it is a lie. You are not alone in this world. But when you are that situation where you are so numb to feel anything that life brings you, you’ll understand the feeling of being alone.

These are the times that you’ll get all confused with your life. You do not know anymore what to do in every aspect of your life. There’s no direction that you can think of for you to follow.

Being at your comfort zones before, life can be simple yet you are happy. But when life pretty much hits you hard, you get confused. You do not know what to do with your life and to the relationships that you have with people around you. Things may not be the same the way it was like before. And that is hard to understand and accept.

 

All you want to do and think of is to get your life back!

Hoping that things will be better...

 

It can be hard and painful for you but you just have to deal with it.

Somewhere along the line, it will get easier. Try think positive too even if its hard.

And beyond the pains…dramas…hardships in life, lies something good ahead of you.

You just have to have faith and hope in everything.

Hold on to Him.

Hold on to yourself.

You’ll get through this part of the journey in your life.

Keep the faith!

 

Relax. Breath. Enjoy. Smile.

 

*nuff drama...you'll be fine.*

 

In dilemma

 

         

        Ahhh… these past few days have been lazy for me. Good thing, I was able to go out and just hang at town today with Nina. (That’s the good side of having a friend who is somewhat a happy bum…haha)

        I was at Powerbooks reading the book of Bo Sanchez on “How to find your One true Love” while waiting for her. Gah! I really have to have that book and read it!

(It’s been a dilemma on that part of life for me? hahaha)

Anyway… so when Nina came already…we talked for a while and went around to look and buy some stuff for ourselves. Haha selfishness! Oh… I have to buy that Fossil watch this weekend!!! And a gift for my sister! hehe

After that, we went to Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf to just hang and talk about stuff… like? Umm…Like when you still want to be a BUM or to be a YUPPIE? Haha it’s more on her, Nina. She’s feeling sick right now and other things like work related stresses her more. Ahhh… dilemma on what to do with your career… start working next week or next year? NEXT YEAR na! Haha I’m such a BI. But I’m just saying what I think and feel. Its better to start next year…its untimely (?) to start work with the year ending already…haha labo! (And its also a plus for me! I have a friend around who is a bum too…haha)

From me, I still think its better to have a job when you are really ready for it, feeling good to do your job, and your prepared to do whatever is given to you. If not, give yourself sometime to think about it… there’s nothing to rush! Right?

A friend in dilemma.

(nice picture noh? Haha peace tayo Nina!)

Oh…friends in those kinds of circumstances really affect me. It’s like I’m also in their situation. Not knowing what to do sometimes … but its ayt! I’m learning! Yay! haha

But still…Awww… those dilemmas to what to do in life and in everything...makes you crazy? haha Hay… good thing for me, I’m still in school (at least for this week and next…haha). I’ll deal with the career thing and all when I graduate from school and get tired of being a bum. Haha I’ll travel around first …anyone wants to go with me? haha

I’ll enjoy whatever that I have right now…enjoy life, right?

…and have a cup of coffee with a friend!

Wahahaha Labo!

So Many Many Many Things. --- So Random! Haha

         There were so many things that happened these past few days and I didn’t have the time to write all about them...hehe

Hmm.. Let’s see... oh! The talk by Bo Sanchez on “How To Find Your One True Love”... what can I say? It was a great one! Short. But a good one! Learned so many things...like follow your deepest desire! and circulate! haha i'll elaborate on it when I am in the mood or when I am able to read the whole book…haha And I went with Nina to the talk (well…supposedly, it was kada thing but they had plans.. but it was ayt! Right nina? haha)

What else? Ah! In connection with my previous blog about where I have been, here's a picture that I saw from archerpride.com...  so, where am I? haha

Yeah...the dunk of Rico Maierhofer! Galing!

And here's a picture of our group for our GENDERS class on the campaign against child pornography…hehe   we were all in red because we needed too...red for the HIV/AIDS thing...the pictures of us and the class were submitted by our professor to MTV ..haha oh, don't forget to visit and support..and join too -- www.dlsuantichildporn.multiply.com ([must] see the pictures of the people there who supports our campaign...haha)

Oh, last Saturday... my sister, Jim (her bf) and I went to Starbucks! Finally completed the card! yay! Haha so, I snag the planner from them! wahahaha  that'll be mine! haha that's their gift for me? nah! pero pwede na basta plus the book that I want! haha

          Umm... also, at last! We were able to go and do some shopping. But first, we went to the house of the officemate of Jim.. Guess who? The brother of Kitchie Nadal! They look the same…kinda like a guy version of hers…haha we just dropped some instruments for their band practice. Then we went to GH! yay! I got the stuff that I needed. I mean, my gifts for my nephews, niece and also to my inaanaks! haha got a gift for my mom and friends too…I only need to buy a gift for my sister then I’m done! haha After lunch, my sister and I went and shopped at Market! Market too! Jim dropped us there because he needed to go to their band practice thing. So there.. Bonding with my sis! Wahahaha After that, we went to Glorietta. We had merienda at Ineng's! haha the best BBQ ever! You gotta try it! hehe then, i finally bought myself a flash drive (1G for 1.2k)! yay! Haha then...we ate at Wendy’s... only fries... but my sister ate salad... oh my…We really ate a lot that day too. I mean…it was more of my sister…haha

     What else? Hmm...that rainy Monday…Waaa so cold…sarap matulog! haha then…When you wake up, there are freshly baked crinkles for you and brownies in the afternoon…Delivered to your house! What can you ask for di ba? haha my good god brother gave that to me! yay! Plus the video that he gave me -- Nike Football - Joga Bonito - Ibrahimovic vs C. Ronaldo .mpg! yay! Great video! astig! Great ball handling skills! hehe and uh, good looking and skilled player (sometimes...haha) --- Cristiano Ronaldo! (I’ll upload the video if I have time...haha) you really have to watch it!

Then..Just yesterday...I just finished and passed all my papers! waaaa konti na lang...I’ll be free from schoolwork! CC day na lang next week to look forward too.hehe Now I have the time to watch new episodes of Grey's Anatomy and Prison Break! yay!!! haha and listen to good new music...finally snagged an album of Mat Kearney! yay!!!

And the day ended having finally seen a good picture of him…the football player that I was talking about before! Haha uh…Bwes, that’s not for you! haha

 

So, am I right? With the title of my blog? Wahahaha

Where the [heck] have you been?!

My morning quote for this day that still cracks me up till now whenever I read it is:

 

"Eh di give * a 'friendly' wave n ask * WHERE DA HELL HAVE U BEEN?!"

 

Wahahahaha my friend gave me that advice! Nice one huh?! Haha

 

 So, where da hell have I been?

(though that question from the quote was definitely not for me)

 

 A lot has been going on these past few days with me… ah… I'm still all gaga over football and some of its players! Wahaha   anyway, I was back to enjoy the game that I love…and that is Basketball.

Well, I wasn't supposed to watch the game live because I wanted to go to a bazaar with my sister. But some plans changed. I had to go to the DLSU vs. JRU game at the Phil. Sports Arena. I went with my former teammate, Leanna, to the game. Though we were lazy to go, we still went there because of our group members and for some tasks to be done. We have less time to do our advocacy on anti-child pornography for our final paper in GENDERS class. And they said that it would be a good venue to do that because the DLSU people are there.

And I saw some people there…uh, yeah...The DLSU crowd of course! haha

Uh, we did some tasks like signing up sheets with the players because Rico M. was part of our group. That was an advantage! Haha (Patricia, Bina and Pereme was there too…my groupmates.) So there…before the game started, Rico got some yellow ribbons that we made for people to wear it as their support for our campaign. When they came out from the dug out, we saw DLSU players had the ribbons pinned on their warm up jerseys and also some assistants in the team! And that was great! Haha our micro-movement is working! Plus!!! The courtside reporter was wearing one too! On TV, she said the reason why the DLSU are wearing that one…I guess…as a support for the advocacy and for Rico na rin!  Haha it's a project thing kasi!!! The ribbon was even focused on the screen! Yay! Haha I just hope people would know what that really means!

And uh, back to the game! I thought it was a so so game but no!…JRU gave DLSU a hard time to win the game…or was it the crappy calls of the referees? Yeah.. I guess it’s because of the calls!

DLSU wins over JRU: 70-63

But what the heck, we still won! So that's enough…and uh, Rico ended the game with a dunk and surprisingly, he was the best player of the game. Wahahaha double-double pa siya! galing!

Then on the way back home…Leanna and I was talking (reminiscing) our good all days in bball! And it was fun! Wahahaha

 

So, that's where I've been today!

I was able to have fun and at the same time help out in our campaign against child pornography! Yay!

 

* Please visit  http://www.lightamillioncandles.com/ and light a candle to support the campaign against child pornography *

Football, anyone?

So... I was actually gonna share this with a friend of mine but uh, things were not good for her and it ended up not so good...

Anyway... the other day... I was scanning the channels on TV. And I saw the Philippine team playing football against Brunei. The team was winning even though there were really really lousy calls of the referee...I was excited to watch it coz I saw before on TV that there is that good *looking* player... fil-brit! haha Phil and James Younghusband! (new prospect!!!*I’ll post his picture next time?*) haha He really plays good and looks good! wahahaha la lang.. galing! They won! And they qualified to the next round! I think it’s in the ASEAN Football Championship 2007. And that's something! A sport like football is not much given attention (coz of basketball?) and there are talented players here in our country.

Then on the other channel, there was the game of Manchester United (I forgot against which team). It was also an exciting game but there was a lousy thing that happened. Cristiano Ronaldo was in front of the goal and the ball was passed to him and he kicked the ball so wrong! That it went out/up...hay… How stupid is that? In front of the goal?...facing the goal without the defender and the goal keeper? Come on! hay... lousy play! hay.. Good thing they won the game! hehe and uh, he looks good too (right janet?)...wahahaha labo! Connect di ba? haha

          ahhh... football/soccer...whatever you call it! It’s an exciting game for me! (Next to basketball…haha) not everyone knows but my first sports to like (kind of) playing was football! It started when I was in grade school…Every lunch time, all girls and boys would play together… aww... miss those happy days…haha And those memories were able to comeback to me especially with the last FIFA Cup! That was great!.. (though Brazil and England lost...)  And now with the several games that I’ve been watching...Real Madrid and Manchester United games are really exciting! Plus the fact some players look good! wahahaha that really adds to the excitement of the game! haha ang kulit!

so... I guess it’s not all about basketball, huh?

 

Football, anyone?

*random* Life: complicated but beautiful?

*Random thoughts*

 

Life is complicated…we just make it worse.

 

There are so many things that happen in our lives. Sometimes we do not understand why these just keep on coming in even if we can’t help it anymore. It may seem that we do not like it at all. But all these are all for our own good. Although these events happen in our life, we still have to put in mind that all these are part of living the life that’s given to us…and we are not alone.

Yes, it will take time to understand it. (trust me on that!) But we have to just enjoy the journey of life…even if that’s hard to do. Sooner or later…you’ll be surprised with the life you have. Who knows what life can bring us, right? Miracles do happen.

 

Life can be beautiful. It's up to us how it can really be beautiful.

 

I guess...We just have to keep that faith and trust in ourselves and of course, in Him!

 

Hmm...Am I making sense here, eh? Haha

I just wanted to share this song to you all!

It’s the song; Life is Beautiful by Vega 4.

They sound like Snow Patrol but it’s not about that. It’s the lyrics!

It’s really something! Read on?

*I’ll try to upload the song at my music when I have time*

 

 

Life Is Beautiful

by Vega 4

 

life is beautiful

we live until we die

 

when you run into my arms

we steal a perfect moment

let the monsters see you smile

let them see you smile

and do i hold you too tightly

when will the hurt kick in

 

life is beautiful

but it's complicated

we barely make it

we don't need to understand

there are miracles

miracles

 

your life is beautiful

our hearts they beat and break

when you run away from harm

will you run back into my arms

like you did when you were young

will you come back to me

and i will hold you tightly

when the hurting kicks in

 

life is beautiful

but it's complicated

we barely make it

we don't need to understand

there are miracles

miracles

 

stand where you are

we let all these moments pass us by

 

it's amazing where i'm standing

there's a lot left we can give

 

this is ours just for a moment

there's a lot left we can give

 

it's amazing where i'm standing

there's a lot left we can give

 

this is ours just for a moment

there's a lot left we can give

no ditchin' 'deyt'?

Finally! After months of planning to hang out, Cyrina and I was able to meet!!! (too bad..Janet and Lea were not able to join us.)

I was at Glorietta early and there was nothing to do. So I jokingly texted Ira about ditching her! (coz we have some stories about ditchin’ stuff...that we really don’t like…haha) but of course, I didn’t do that!

When we got there…we talked lots of stuff (like what?…umm..sa amin na lang yun..haha) then, we had lunch and went around to Glorietta and GB to find some gifts for others and for ourselves…but ended up, Ira was the only one who bought something for her (you won't regret buying that shoes noh?!)…but I was fine with that. Haha (oh..i got some Cds).

But the main “event” haha (of what Cyrina calls) of the “deyt” was her Starbucks’s treat for me!!! (Yay!)

It was her treat for being a yuppie (hahaha I know you don’t like that term, ira!) .. it’ll be my treat next time...like next year? Haha We went to 6750 for coffee even if we were in GB already…we just have to complete the card with stickers.. .coz I need to get that planner! Haha

So there! We just had fun the whole day! Just talking about some stuff… and uh…some stuff. Haha yun na yun...

 Its really nice to get in touch with your friends that you don’t usually see. After everything, some things are really just the same. The friendship is still there!!! haha

and of course, the fights? are so much fun!!! right? wahahaha

 

family celebrations...kids = joy

Last night, our family had some celebrations! It was the birthday of my mom and a send off dinner for my cousin, Kuya Elmer / Paps (off to work in Boracay for 6 months straight!) ! Haha

We were supposed to eat at Metrowalk but some plans were changed and it was so damn traffic! Grrr! My cousins wanted to eat at a seafood market… so, we ate there! It’s like the dampa style where you go to the market and buy then you let the people cook it for you...something like that...And of course, we all ate a lot! Haha

The food was all over the place! I was so full…after everyone was done eating, my sister took out the small cake that we have for my mom.  We all sang altogether to her! well… actually, it was really only the kids who sang…haha

And though our family celebrated without my dad, I know he’s happy for us too!... *missing him*

It was fun, especially I like being with the kids… haha

they just give me…JOY!

Aww… I just love my pamangkins! Ang kulit!

    with kyla!

 

 Us...kids having fun! haha

 

 

 

ahh... my crazy makulit pamangkins! = joy

hahaha

I'm Haley James-Scott!

oh... in the middle of doing a paper for a subject, i found myself taking a test that can be found here:  http://kidzworld.com/site/cq97-1.asp

 

As everyone knows, I just love One Tree Hill...haha and that's why I took this test to what they call the OTH personality test: Which Character Are You?

I know which character I want and I also know which character that I am ... but still, I took the test! *wishing that I was right*

 

and here was the the result! haha

 

Yay! I knew it! I was right! I'm Haley James-Scott! haha I like her character... and somehow... in some ways...(without the marriage and pregnancy thing ah)...she's like me! wahaha umm...loyal friend, kind heart and all...Am I right?! wahaha *somehow*..yeah...haha

so, which character are you?

*oh...how I wish I have a Nathan Scott...wahahaha...ang kulit!*

*quite* driving me crazy over Quietdrive

Oh life.

There’s so many things that are happening in my life that sometimes I get so bored or sometimes I just don’t wanna think about! Hayyy.

Good thing there are some things that I get for myself to enjoy…at least for awhile. Haha

A few days back.. I was able to browse FF and people there were sharing some new music…that’s where I get all the music that I am enjoying.. they are not that popular (which is good for me…haha) but their music are really really good..great! And I checked out a song! There’s a new version of the song ,“Time After Time”… and I really like it! After that, I got all the songs of that band...(and it took me so much time! hayyy.) They are called Quietdrive! Almost all of their songs are great! And I really like it! love it! haha they're all over my computer and mp3 now...

and uh, *quite* drives me crazy…haha

seems appropriate huh? Haha

 

*if wanna hear their music, you can check out it here at my music*

friday night?...at home?

Wow! It’s a Friday! But I am here... at home.

That’s really nice!

I’m supposed to be with my friends *kada* now hanging at town or watching a movie... but NO! I’m here at home for some reasons...well, I’m kinda alright with that because I don't have enough money and I have to wake up early tomorrow for my community service BUT I know I’m missing a lot! Haha yeah yeah yeah… lousy me! Haha

It’s just that…lately, we’ve been going out and I really do have fun with them… all the katakawan, walang lamangan and kawawaan. So kulit! And all the nonsense fights! fun.fun.fun.

I’m not there…wala tuloy kasama si Pranter! (sa mga kawawa)

and no referee for the kada! Haha

But I told them that I’d be coming with them next time! PRAMIS? Haha yeah… so, I guess I’ll be fine… at least my friends are happy (I hope so…) and not fighting?! Haha labo! Ahh…miss them!

So there.. Friday night…here at home.. blogging… surfing the net.. emailing…downloading mp3s… plus! Some clips of OTH!

*aww…* saw a clip on naley! Wahahahaha got giddy again! Haha

Yeah.. What a way to spend your Friday evening! Haha

How great is that?!

Maybe Tomorrow

There are so many things that are happening in life. It is at night that you think about all those that made you happy or sad for the day…sometimes you don’t know what to do with your life even though there are people around you who truly care for you…

The feeling that you have fallen apart and trying to get yourself back...is pretty hard…

 

While I was listening to my mp3 before going to sleep, I stumbled upon this song.  The tune is upbeat but the lyrics kinda struck me and made me think…its seems appropriate for me, huh...especially the chorus…

 

...maybe tomorrow…I’ll find my way home...

 

the song can be downloaded here at my music .

and Here’s the whole lyrics:

 

Maybe Tomorrow

by Stereophonics

 

I've been down and

I'm wondering why

These little black clouds

Keep walking around

With me

With me

 

It wastes time

And I'd rather be high

Think I'll walk me outside

And buy a rainbow smile

But be free

They're all free

 

So maybe tomorrow

I'll find my way home

So maybe tomorrow

I'll find my way home

 

I look around at a beautiful life

Been the upperside of down

Been the inside of out

But we breathe

We breathe

 

I wanna breeze and an open mind

I wanna swim in the ocean

Wanna take my time for me

All me

 

So maybe tomorrow

I'll find my way home

So maybe tomorrow

I'll find my way home

 

So maybe tomorrow

I'll find my way home

So maybe tomorrow

I'll find my way home

 

So maybe tomorrow

I'll find my way home

So maybe tomorrow

I'll find my way home

 

healthy food + nice ambiance = great!

I love eating healthy food in a place close with the nature.

Yesterday, we celebrated my sister’s birthday (though her real birthday was last Friday) with her boyfriend and my mom.

(oh… first time to celebrate without my dad… ahh..i miss him...)

Anyway, we ate lunch at Sonya’s Garden in Tagatay! (woot! woot! haha)

Finally… I was able to go there! It’s really a great place to eat and also relax… so we started with salad...

 

Then some bread with different spreads and then the pasta with red or white sauce to choose from…

 

Then we had sweet potato and turon for desert…then there’s also the mint tea…

...and our drinks was the fresh dalandan juice! (sarap!) all these are served in our table and can be refilled... 

haha…after that.. we went around to see the place and took some pictures…with my mom and sister...

                                     

 

after that..i was sooo full! (hahaha)

 

 

But it was all fun! ...

and great!

World Trade Center movie + 5.2 quake = freaky!!!

What do you get when add a movie and an earthquake???

I tell you… its freaky!

I was with my mom and sister when we went to festi last friday to watch a last full show of the movie, World Trade Center. Some of the scenes were quite boring for me… but there were some that were really scary! Having that kind of intense emotion is really something! And in the middle of watching that movie… I felt our seats were moving! It was an earthquake! (how appropriate with the movie noh?) talk about good timing! Argh!

That happened around 10:30 pm. I was nervous… but did not panic??? Haha

so there… we didn’t finish the movie because of that!

So, I dunno what was the ending...(can anyone tell me? haha) ...that was the first movie that I ever watched in the cinemas that I walked out.

That’s the first... and I hope there’s no next time.

it's a STEP.

oh...here i am...blogging? online journal? it's something new for me...there's so many things that happens in my life but i don't usually let others know about it...because i have my own reasons...haha but i know i have to let it out...uh, somehow? haha so i guess.. this is a step for me? haha whatever... i'll just enjoy life...or whatever that comes to me because...

life's funny sometimes... (yeah...) but can push pretty hard...

haha...so, i'll take this thing. i'll take it. enjoy it? haha because...yeah!

it's a STEP.