Contemplating?!

Gah! I’ve never encountered about money problems in my life. All my life, I know how to save and budget my money...money was an easy thing for me to manage. Not a problem at all. But now...I’m contemplating onto something that involves money.

As you all know, our house is being constructed. There’s a lot of money that we need to finish it (contrary to what people think or say...tsss! [check out my other blog site if you wanna know something about it]). I am helping out the family in paying some bills (not that I am obliged to)...well, that's the least that I can do given the fact that I have a low salary (duh?! haha).

But then I also have some things that I want to buy and want to do!

I dunno if I should sacrifice with what I want or not.

Or is it wrong to do something? Buy something and do what I really want?

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Jade texted me this morning about a certain trip. We've been talking about it for some time already. And now, I think...it's going to happen. haha (that's all good!)

It’s a Batanes art and photo expedition on April 2008. It’s 16k...all in! There’s food, transpo, tour and photo lectures (am I right?!).

That’s a good deal, right?! The trip is just fine for me!

Not a problem.

But here's the problem for me... (haha I know it’s so shallow...but it's something for me.)

…I want a dslr!!! haha

But I dunno if I can afford it...well, I think I can but I dunno.

It’s something that I want now (oh my...I’m really becoming a photography enthusiast. haha)…but I dunno if my mom and my sister would be happy about it...it's because its not time to spend a lot of money coz there's so many expenses now.

Actually, here's my plan...(well, I do plan a lot...sorry, if it's OC or OCD? haha nuff about that.)

I want to have a dslr by December or January...

After that, I want to enrol to photography classes by the end of January till February.

By that time, I know how it all works and I can use it in trips like the one for Batanes.

It’s more of…

I want to have a dlsr and know something about it ...

use it when I get to Batanes…

coz its once in a lifetime experience and I want it to make it right.

All these…

At the same time, I am able to help out my family.

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Too much to ask?

I think so...haha

So there…for me...

Sacrifice? Even just a bit?

Maybe...

I think so...

But I hope I can do something about it in time? And enjoy both...helping out and doing also what I want...

Gah, why can't I just enjoy both?

Too much to ask?

Nah!

Nah? haha

*prays*