Little things...

Having some time off with work, I was able to rest and be with my family.
It gave me time to see and think about some little things…and can be a big thing?
There have been some good and not so good things.

Hmm... not so good thing first?
- being at the cemetery. (it’s not that I don’t want to visit my relatives and my daddy, it’s just that…I don’t want to be there. I don’t want to visit my daddy coz I want him to be here always by my side and still with us… I guess, I am still not used to it. Not used to the changes…)
- hearing conversations about what’s happening around because of some changes or things that happened.
- hearing people close to you saying that we are a well-off family and we don't need anything makes me feel sad and cry a bit.
(that's a good thing? nah! for me, it’s not a good thing. i just feel that they are looking at us the wrong way....I guess, they just don't really know us...haaay. what we have now, what we have achieved as a family, those are the results of all the sacrifices and hard work of my parents.)

Good thing?
- Just being with the family...and praying...remembering family members who are with the Lord already.
- seeing my cousins and my pamangkins! (it takes some effort to travel and be together...)
- My cousin, Kuya Elmer / Paps, leaning on me so heavily on my back while we were resting on bed. (Actually, i didn't want it in some ways...but i know he is just being makulit and just being sweet? haha)
- taking several pictures with my family...cousins...pamangkins. (and sometimes, I am not in the picture coz I am the one taking it. grrr..Now, I think that's the not so good thing part...haha)
- practicing my photography on whatever thing I see at the cemetery...like the flowers, candles, cross...just anything...haha
- hearing CJ, my godson, says "gusto ko ung juicy!" (haha that's what he said when he was eating his chicken joy!)
- having a contest with CJ on eating Cheetos (hot flavor) together without drinking water! haha and seeing him all sweaty and getting red while I was giving him the Cheetos that are big, long and so red! haha laughtrip!
- seeing my niece, Kyla, approaching me and i don't know why...and whispers, "kadiriii..." (haha that's what we taught her...the "eww, kadiriii" expression..haha wala lang.)
- seeing and hearing the Lola's telling Kyla what to do…this and that…on how she’ll be posing for pictures.
- My cousin, Kuya Ernie / Pugs, tells me, "Irene, gumanito ka sa lupa. (demonstrating on hearing the ground) may maririnig ka na radyo. nasa AM pa." and I asking him, "baket? ahhh..." (Then I get his point) -- This happened when we were at the cemetery visiting my daddy. (Daddy has always a radio with him and listening to the news) that is such a nice little thing to hear. It just goes to show that they know my daddy, their Tito Rene, who was also a big part of their life even if he is not directly related to him. It also shows that daddy touched them in some ways coz I know they won't say that if he didn't, right? I guess he misses daddy too like all of us. It makes me happy.

ummm... these are some little things that happened to me these past few days...which makes me appreciate it.
It’s just also so nice to recall and reflect to these moments.
It teaches me to learn a few things...some makes me sad but some of it lets me be thankful also.

I guess…
Little things (good or not so good) are...
Yeah, can be a big thing…impact to you too!

[pahabol? good or not so good?
Knowing that he is moving here in the country? good? dunno...hmm.
But not having a team back there? not so good.
Labo! nuff about that...haha]